I have tried to start this post so many times.

It is really hard. I still don't know what to think about it or how I should react. On the one hand I want to support him and encourage him because in my brain I know that this is the best time for something like this to come up and if he gets it over-with then he can say no the next time. But, my emotional side wants to cry and yell and scream and have an emotional breakdown like I did on that drunken night that Eric, Emily, Noodle, and Shannon were in the park with me and I cried and cried and cried.


Keith was told last month that he is on the TDY list for the middle east.